November is already over? This month flew by and this girl
is not complaining one bit!! We have almost made it half way through this
dreaded deployment and quite frankly I’m over it. I’m ready to have my love
back in my arms, or at least a little closer than 7 thousand miles away. I’m
happy time is passing quickly, but the holiday season is proving to be a little
harder to get through. It’s hard to ignore the fact that a huge part of my life
is missing, no matter how many people I am surrounded by and no matter how hard
they try to make it easier. Don’t get me wrong, I have an amazing support
system and they truly do make things easier and keep me laughing constantly,
but it still doesn't quite fill the gap in my heart. The only thing to do is be
thankful that one day I will get to be with Aaron again and rest in the
comforting arms of my Savior.
Aaron is doing well. He told me that they served them a
wonderful Thanksgiving dinner with pretty much anything you could imagine,
which made me feel a tad bit better. We get
to talk at least once or twice a week and if we can get a decent connection we
try to Skype. Technology is wonderful when it works, but when it stops working mid-conversation it can leave you with a huge knot in your stomach. Yesterday we were messaging back and forth and five minutes into it I stopped receiving messages. It happens all the time, but I doubt I will ever get used to it because in the back of my mind I just pray it was a connection loss and pray it isn't days before I hear from him again. If you know me well, you know I can be a little worry wart sometimes, but I work on it everyday. He is extremely exhausted. I can see it all over his face and hear it in his voice.
Each time he looks a little more worn out and the dark circles around his eyes
are bigger and darker. I love talking to him, but sometimes I would just
rather him get some sleep. I hate seeing him like that, knowing that he will
only get about 4 to 5 hours of sleep before he is back up and at it again. But,
it’s just one more thing I have to trust God about. That He will keep Aaron
alert and at his best every day. Aaron says he already has so many stories to
tell me. He does not really tell me anything that happens while they are on
missions. He knows it will only make me worry more, so he says he will tell me when he gets home. I don’t know if it really helps, not telling me
and all. I mean, I know something happens when he says he will tell me later,
but I understand he only wants to protect me. Like I don’t already worry? No,
not me!! He tells me all the time he is just on a super long camp out and he
will be home soon. It really does help me that he is always at peace about
everything. He knows what he is doing. He knows why he is there. He knows that
no matter what God is still in control and always will be. Sometimes I feel bad
because I feel like he has to support me when I fail to be strong. Shouldn't I
be the strong one? I honestly have no idea how people make it through this
without complete faith and trust in Christ, one of the strongest Soldiers there
is, and the most amazing support systems ever. It just makes it a little easier
to get through. Please continue to pray for him. When you are surrounded by family this Christmas, take a minute to stop and pray for all the men and women who can't be with their families.
Be on the lookout for the next blog, it may contain a little
bit of information I know a lot of people have been waiting to hear. Until
then, stop letting your worries rob you of your joy.
“Our anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, but only
empties today of its strength.”
–Charles Spurgeon
“ 6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by
prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made
known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all
understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
–Philippians 4:6&7
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